A New Beggining?? Maybe?

So, as I said before, I was in a 10 year relationship with my high school sweet heart. Yeah I know, those never last. Or do they?? I believe that anything can happen, and that everything in our lives happens for a reason. I have been put through a lot with this guy. I have learned to love him in every way. We broke up for the first times about 3 years ago. We were separated for 2 months. This time, I thought was going to be permanent. Words were said, feelings were hurt, and of course, being the big baby that I am, there were also tears involved. I got the the point where I felt ok. I didn't think of him as much, but I truly think that it was me not letting myself think of him. But, I would go to places and be in different environments, and all I can think of was, "Wish he was here with me" and "I bet he would love coming here" All I've been wanting is a phone call from him saying, "I want you back" After 2 weeks of no calls or texts, I received one last night. He asked "How are you?" and that's were the conversation started. We casually texted back and forth asking about work and family, but I couldn't help the think what he wanted. He never just randomly texts me, so I asked. He gets on the defense and replies "What I can't ask how you are? If you want I won't bother you" I told him that wasn't the case. Then he says "I just been thinking a lot about you lately" *tears* lol And the conversation continued about who was at fault, and what was said, and how sorry we both were,and how much we've missed each other. I just had to now what was really going on, so I ask him and he says, "IDK maybe we should try to work things out, well only if you want" What to reply....think...think... I told him that I thought is was a good idea. He then says "Let us see what happens, and if we're really meant for each other"..........

Jay-Z & Mary J. Blige

April 10, 2008, I witness the best show performed by two great artists. Jay-Z & Mary J. Blige. If anyone has a change to see this concert or anyone of these artists in there life time, I suggest you do so.

Mary J. Blige-
Her songs in themselves are full of emotions, but it seems like when she performs them, it is %100 better. She performs like she is living every moment of the song at that same second. I had goose bumps the whole time and at one point I seriously thought I was gonna cry..lol. (I'm such a cry baby) She performed everything from "Real Love" "Sweet Thing" "Not Gon' Cry" to "Fade Away" "Just Fine" "Work That" and so many more, and every song was just as great as the one before. I have to give it up to this girl, she is the best. Her vocals are so great and her performance is just absolutely amazing!! <3

Jay-Z-
Now what I say about this man that you don't know. He in himself is just great. He performance was also great. He performed "Can't Knock the Hustle" of course with Mary J. Blige, "Jigga What, Jigga Who" "Song Cry" once again with MJB, "Dirt Off Your shoulders" "Encore", and many more. He also performed two songs with Memphis Bleek and since he was here in Houston, he performed "Big Pimpin" and had Bun B perform with him. The part where Pimp C would have sung, the crowd did and they had pictures of him in the background. It was so awesome.

At the end of the night, I was so satisfied with everything. I had the best time, and I was so glad that I could share that moment with my two good friends, Big C and Brenda. I love you guys! <3

....Me!

Well, the name is Adriana. I like to do all kinds of things. I love to cook, be with family and freinds, go out and have fun, shop, cars and lots of other things. Music is a very big thing in my life right now. I'm trying to get into stuff I've always been interested in but never had the time. I'm on a forever shopping spree and I hope to do some more traveling very soon. I am trying to find myself, if that makes any sense. I was in a very long term relationship and it seems to me in that time I lost who I was. I became someone other then me. Now, I'm trying to find the real me and be happy with that person. Also I have noticed that I am not truely happy with myself, so I have to try anythign to make myself like the person that I have become.

For awhile I had picked up smoking again. I know ewwww...nasty but I have decided to stop smoking and drinking. I'm not sure if the whole not drinking thing is a long term thing or just for awhile. It was at a point where drinking helped me get away from my feelings and reality and I know that isn't a good thing. Now it's time to get myself straight and face the world as it is. With nothing to numb the pain, or help with what I am feeling and going through. So, here I am world....come and get me.